The Pain

i want a perfect kind of life. ill no longer be naive. when your a cheat or a liar. your toxic and you got under my skin. now i need a hospital to pump out your lies. and a heart replacement because this one is worn out and don't with all your bull shit. days go by when i want to be some one else. i look into myself and all i see is damage you have caused. some times i feel like I'm at the end of my rope. its like all of the good things fall apart. i don't know what way is up.  take me or leave me. just so you know if you cant handle my worst your never going to get my best. 

Revelation

 i feel as if I'm rolling down a hill of thorn bushes. getting cut every which way i roll. I messed with fire and got burnt. I'm trying to cut out of this coffin that i have put myself in. i need to get out of it. my unconditional love has run out and my heart is stone. I'm not chasing any more. if you want me you know where ill be. I've had an epiphany a revelation this is the way i am and nothing is going to change that. 

So Tired By:Shawna

I'm so very tired. Tired of the drama, the lies and the waiting.  some one come rescue me. all i want is drama free living.i need a stable person in my life.  to be continued........

To T.D. by: Shawna

When i look at him i see a bright future. He is the one Ive been looking for all my life. i want to have his children and grow old with him. with him i can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel. he makes me feel like Ive never felt before. he is the most kind and sweetest man Ive ever met. i want to make sweet love to him. i feel so alive when I'm around him. and i know that he would save my life if anything were to happen to me. since i met him i haven't had suicidal thoughts any more. i think he is the missing piece to my puzzle called life. i miss him all the time. 

My Vampire Queen By: Shawna

She is the Vampire I have been waiting for my whole life. She lights the fire in my heart. My Queen is beautiful,smart and sweet. But has a hunger that matches my own. Our Blood Lust takes over at nightfall then we sleep in the darkness of our room by the time the sun begins to rise. We hunt and feed at night together. She fulfills my needs and I hers. We are fulfilling our destiny together. We are a match.

-To Be Continued- 

I'm a Fool By: Lillith

I made a fool of myself tonight, a big fool. I don't even know why she would want me back. I broke her heart, I made her cry. We had planned for the future and I ruined it all. I asked her to be mine again, to start over. To show her the real grown up me. I will not stray. She will have my whole heart and I hers. I feel like a fool. Like I shouldn't have said a word. It looked like I got a blank stare. I feel so raw, like I could cry, I must be a fool. 

Gratification By: Verin

I hid in the backseat. Waited for her to come out of the club. As she got it into her car and settled in, I could smell the alcohol coming off her in waves. My hands covered in black gloves, I quickly grabbed her face and covered her mouth. With my knife in one quick motion I cut her throat. As I did, I felt the blade slide through her flesh and felt the warmth on my glove. As she gasped for air I watched as the blood squirted on to the windshield. I breathed a sigh of gratification. I waited as she stopped moving and breathing. I got out of the car and walked effortlessly and satified.

Silver Moon By: Shawna

Raising my hands up to the sun. I feel the het. The sun soaking into my pores, it almost feels good as sex. When I bring my arms down I realize that I'm starting to burn. My skin is turning into ash. I watch as I'm slowly burning away. As I fall to my knees one last thought crosses my mind. We don't belong in the sun. We spend our time under the beautiful silver moon.

Last Step By: Charlie

I'm tied up. I feel like I have been whipped, whipped and whipped again. I'm being consumed. Consumed by frankly the thing in the world. Not drugs, not alcohol, instead by my mind. Being alone with my thoughts would be all it would take to take that last step off the ledge.