The Pain

i want a perfect kind of life. ill no longer be naive. when your a cheat or a liar. your toxic and you got under my skin. now i need a hospital to pump out your lies. and a heart replacement because this one is worn out and don't with all your bull shit. days go by when i want to be some one else. i look into myself and all i see is damage you have caused. some times i feel like I'm at the end of my rope. its like all of the good things fall apart. i don't know what way is up.  take me or leave me. just so you know if you cant handle my worst your never going to get my best. 

Revelation

 i feel as if I'm rolling down a hill of thorn bushes. getting cut every which way i roll. I messed with fire and got burnt. I'm trying to cut out of this coffin that i have put myself in. i need to get out of it. my unconditional love has run out and my heart is stone. I'm not chasing any more. if you want me you know where ill be. I've had an epiphany a revelation this is the way i am and nothing is going to change that.